Energizer Bunny

I feel like the energizer bunny's rival, the one who's battery always runs out while the bunny just keeps going.  I've been trying to focus so hard on creating good habits, but I keep running out of steam.  The last 2 days I have been getting up past 8 and not exercising in the morning, and last night i stayed out really late for a friends birthday party (interesting how birthday parties seem to get in the way of things for a lot of people, eg brian @ bkbomber.blogspot.com) .  It really got in the way of things, but I guess life doesn't ever give you a clear road to do what you want - I have to make the correct decisions.  I could have left the party early, but I decided to stay with everyone until 3am, knowing fully that I had to wake up early the next day to get to the soccer tournament.

The soccer tournament was amazing.  While the ending was a little anti-climatic with our 1-0 lead in a 16 to 8 match going to 4-1 them in under 3 minutes, I still had a lot of fun.  We played 4 games over 2 days, and made it from 176 teams down to the final 16!  

While the Bday party and Soccer were great fun and I wouldnt trade those experiences for anything, I also didn't balance them well with other things in my life.  Sleep, Eating, Drinking, Etc I didn't take care of during the last couple of days, and because of that every other part of my life has been affected: studying, errands, etc.  I got too caught up with what was going on to make the conscious smart decision to not stay out late and drink with everyone, and not get completely consumed in soccer excitement that I didn't think about anything else.  

The upside, still, was that I managed to get on here tonight and blog, and I still spent an hour tonight studying chinese idioms.  Being able to keep up the good habits in my most tired moment means that the habits have a real chance of sticking, and every small success matters in the long run.  

A great comment that keeps coming up is that I need to learn to relax.  This has been a constant theme throughout my life, that I can be too serious about some things and not relax enough, but I'm not quite sure how to do it.  Relaxing may come easy to most people, but for me it's uncharted territory.  When I do things, I go all out, and I am always doing things.  It will take a real conscious effort to force myself to relax (oxymoron?) while at the same time being self-disciplined enough to take on the goals I have set out for myself.  Perhaps setting up relaxing time everyday would be a good idea, either meditation or TV or reading a fantasy novel.  Video games don't work for me for relaxation as I get too competitive.  We'll see.

I plan on looking into posting pictures and video, but I'm not sure if I can do that here.  If not, I may move the blog back over to myspace, as I want this to be more than just a blog, but to be accompanied with pictures, audio, and video eventually.  

Hopefully I can keep up with that energizer bunny someday.  It's gonna take a lot of training :) Night.